Turn a New Paige

Im sorry im not freakin perfect. yeah i try to be most of the time but sometimes i slip up. IM SORRY. yeah. i screwed up. once. big deal. im sorry..

todays the big day.

im graduating.. in a few hours.

i will never be in high school again.

no one is responsible for me but myself and im on my own.

i just cant even wrap my mind around that; i am not ready to gradutate in the slightest and im really not even excited about it. i have had the best childhood a kid can ask for. my parents have done so much for me over the past 17+ years, granted, that is their job, still, being a parent is almost a thankless job. until now. until i realized that i only have so much time with them and that they dedicated the rest of their lives to raising me and loving me and caring for me. there is no possible way to thank them enough or appreciate them enough. evenn so, i am so incredibly thankful for all they do and all they have done for me. my little sister is amazing as well. she is so talented and crazy and weird and i love her, sometimes we get in fights of course (all siblings do) but i wont see her every day and get to ask her about her newest crush and tease her nonstop, shes only a phone call away but sometimes that seems way too far. i have no idea what im going to do without my family next year, they mean so much to me.

its also crazy that i may never see some of my friends again. i wont see a lot of people again, luckily its mostly the annoying people who ruined senior prank for us and take away traditions for half of my class, anyway. i have made some really good friends in the past 17 years and i have to make completely new friends. a few of my friends and i are so close that i would consider us to be sisters, and i refuse to let that friendship die. even my best friend in good old california. i have had so many wonderful memories with all of them and i can only say thanks for making my life so great.

so mom, dad, zoe, lauren, sarah, allie, kelsi, the rest of my friends and family,

thank you and i love you

you have made this chapter of my life so incredibly wonderful and memorable. im sure i will have an amazing time in college but i’ll miss this part of my life every day, but every chapter must come to an end and i suppose now all i can do it turn a new paige.

^^^^^clever huh? ;D anyway. please excuse all the cheesy cliches. kthanks. bye

okay, people really need to stop using (going by?) double standards. y’all are annoying. its either good or bad, right or wrong, in or out, up or down. like in soccer. the ball isnt out of bounds just cause the other team kicked it out but its still in when you kick it out. just play the game and go away.

a year ago i said i couldnt wait for school to be done and for summer to be here

now i would give so much to be where i was last year, or 5 years ago, or 10.

growing up really sucks.

its crazy to think that in just a few days (and by that i mean less than 2 weeks) i will be graduating. so i suppose this is just a time for me to reflect and say thanks, etc.

every single thing i have experienced in high school (and life so far) has shaped me into who i am today, and i couldnt be more pleased. i know that sounds stuck up and yes, there are days when my flaws are completely awful and worse than normal, but you know what. that makes me me. and honestly if i could be anyone in the world, i wouldnt. i’d be me. all of the fights i’ve gotten into with friends, all the arguements and tears, all the boys i thought i loved, and those that i actually did, and still do, the playground at my elementary school and all of my best friends that i played with in the tree roots (im weird, i know) the huge middle school and the huge transition from california to kansas, all of the friends i have made and this journey i have been on is the most amazing thing that could have ever happened to me. i have made friends for sometimes just a few short months and best friends that will last my lifetime. everyone says you dont stay friends with your high school friends but bonds i have made with these people are some of the strongest i have ever seen. i am so thankful for everything that has happened to me, good and bad. i wouldnt be where i am today without it. 

so thanks for the trips to disneyland, the scar from carrie accidentally kicking my face when we were cheerleading, the ymca day care, the friends, the “enemies”, the love, the hate, the smiles, the tears, my grandma, my cats, even losing my ipod (or getting it stolen by a friend? hmmm..)

if anyone has actually made it this far and/or cares

live life without regrets

take chances

dare to dream

stay up all night

get swept away by love

dont ever give up

make mistakes

shine brighter than the stars

cherish the cliches of this world

laugh at yourself

remember the good times but dont let them get in the way of your future

your future is bright

take the world by storm

believe in yourself

the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams -eleanor roosevelt

is it really too much to ask?